I swore,i was finished last night, but feel the need to clarify. I feel i have very little advice or substance to add to the highly skilled crew that resides in the photo forum. I also felt that my continuing to participate was keeping others from joining in the dialog,because of resentment for me from the other fiasco.I just continue to feel responsible,and this is my way of saying sorry. Perhaps i will look here for advice, but think my bowing out will be best for all parties.
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<br /> Many times i feel i am walking a tightrope between being helpful, and appearing to be overzealous.I also tend to read a lot into things,and this is just my negative personality.In this very forum,i expected to see loads of contributions,and to me it seemed that the more i got involved, the less frequently i saw others adding photos,and i came to the conclusion,that i was driving others away.
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<br />I have a real love of photography,especially nature,and my enthusiasm to see it and share it can get misinterpreted. I appreciate the kind words,but i have this overwhelming feeling that i have caused some individuals to step away that are of greater value than i can ever hope to be. this is unfortunate because other people suffer,due to me. please understand that this decision did not come lightly for me,but one i hope to abide by. perhaps i will return, because one day i am up,and the next down. Thank God if you never have to experience the wonderful roller coaster ride that mild depression can bring.
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<br /> Now that i poured my bleeding heart out, if you need a good laugh,go read the flame warriors lounge forum,and visit the website shown. i saw myself there in more than one description. its funny to see yourself and others from a neutral point of view. The saddest part for me, is knowing i will miss out on all the discussions with the people i feel i have become friends with. Continue on in your endeavors and maybe one day i will feel the need to return. Like Tori Amos says " Oh these little earthquakes, doesnt take much to rip us into pieces". WOW, that should give some psychology student something to analyze,and those that hate me will now have plenty of ammo to blast me apart with. I guess the bottom line is i just cannot run with the big dogs,so i guess i better stay on the porch.
<br />enjoy this photo. It looks like me right now. i am on the left.sorry,not a macro,but funny.
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